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Warning:

This is not a 300 word text explaining the process that led me to the outcome. Becaaaaause..... I want you to join the journey with me....!!!!

Are you ready for the adventure?

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RandoMyself Generator Device
sitting in on the class..... Lecturer talks....

unknown..... scary ....

aNxIeTy


Feel the feeling.....

Allow it!!!!

It is ok! It is only something new....

Did you understand? No! Well I think I did!


Yeahhhhh I did....

What? no... I don't know anymore.....

Its a good feeling ...hmmm ... freedom, maybe? creativity?

Lecturer: CONTROL! Architects control our environments..
Me: So cool!! I have never thought in this way...... I love to think of things that I haven't thought before...... challenge me!!!!

New feeling new feeling new feeling!!!!
Then I hear......

It is ok to FAIL..... Fail

ok to fail? No.... did I hear it?

Nothing like a psychology assignment....uh! but really? for real? I love it. new language... new possibilities....

Fail....
Failll
Faaiiilll
FaiiiL
FAAAAAAIIIILLLL
ahhhh sigh....
Fail...

uhhhhh it is a good feeling!

Freedom..... Freedom! Enjoy the feeling.... it won't last long... you are not in art school silly...




omg omg omg! what to do????


hmmmmm ... just allow.... and start.....

take some.....
..-----................ Notes!

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random notes: 5 senses
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Random notes: 5 senses
























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What to do now? There is an assignment in the end of this craziness...
ahhhhhhhhh

First things first.....

First confirm with the lecturer.... to know what he wants..... it is important.... because grade is important..... this is my default myself talking to myself (<- does this even make sense in english? Should I worry? I worry too much all year long.... I chose this course because I wanted to feel the freedom.... the possibilities..... not the control.... can I not care about this right now?? yes... just allow it... it is ok to fail... )


Anyway... spoke to the lecturer..... booooommm AH HA! ....... I am my random generator device!!!! That is so cool!!!


METHOD:
type words
print words
cut words
put it in a fishbowl
bring it to class and
a rANDOM PERSOn pick one word

OUTCOME ! Done!


TICK the BOX..........................................
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................................................................................................................ sigh.....Yeah, job done.... I Can RELAX NOW!!!!!!!!
No....
..............No......
No! Still brewing.....
WAY HOME

The process continues....

Overwhelmed 1.....

Why notes? Impractical. Document. Pictures can also give me so much more....

Look at the sky and.... aaah ha!

The RandoMyself Generator device (ME) is also part of the universe!

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Still impractical....


Overwhelmed 2.....

So,....

ChANGE!

ahhhh my steps..... just the ground...

Ground
(just something random...try to play the three videos at the same time...its fun!)





PAUSE PAUSE Pause,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;PAUSE PAUSE P PAUSE PAUSE PAUSE PAUSE
I Need a PAUSE and fuel to overcomeoverwhelming feeling..
give me energy
Strategy 1:
Sushi
need to continue recording, but how?

sounds only sounds...

Order


Wait ..... Ginger please


maybe a picture?

.........Eating--------- yummy yummy
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WAY HOME continues....




at this point I realised that I was only looking to the ground... I wasn't looking to faces....

I thought: that is cool! it will have a lot of sounds but no faces or objects. It will be like a game.... you can try to imagine the face of the person talking, or what that noise was... but you will never know for sure!

But there is not only the ground.......

There is......


Ground and sky
special moment:
Children talking in another language....I do not understand the meaning... but I understand.... they are playing.... its beautiful.. only sounds... pay attention...

made me happy....








Arrive home.... STOP ... low battery

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Exhausted
aNxIeTy
still
Strategy 2:
regulate
breath


breath in breath outrecord
in out in out in out


Strategy 3: listen listen listen to the surrounding noises
birds cars peopletalking
So poetic..... poetic sounds.....



poetic sounds..... soothing.....

sigh.......
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

its SOUNNNNNND!!!! Its SOUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOUND!!!!! SOUNDD!! SOUNND!!

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FM..*&CR..$#..KD..^^~~!!!.... Still 3 other experiments to do..... and I'm feeling sick.... Sick.... Sick...... I hate feeling sick..... blocked nose... cough.... lack of energy....... hard work